Rough Around the Edges Makes it Sharp.

Saturday, oh where do I start?
Well, first off. Elite sucked. Even though I couldn't sleep at night, I still managed to wake up at 7:22AM beautifully. I later found out how crummy my teachers are, and just how terrible Saturdays at Elite are. They attempt to cram quizzes, homework, exercises, and test review all into one little class session. So fail.

After that little inferno of my day passed, I was pumped to go to Music Speaks with Quyen! Let me tell you, I had an amazing time. Even though I had an allergy attack while getting ready, and super drained and tired, I still was able to enjoy myself in the atmosphere of talent. AJ Rafael, Cathy Nguyen, Mike, the Adrian William Project- Andrew Garcia, Frank Hagen, Jane Lui, Jennifer Chung, Passion, JR Aquino, Melissa Polinar, just to name a few. I am in utter disbelief that I would ever find myself in the same twenty feet radius from them, which I was! Although I do regret not popping an advil or tylenol before leaving the house, I still was starstruck and enjoyed every moment of listening to their talent spilling on us. The fact that the entire event was put forth for Autism, is touching and moving. Just.. stunning.

To me, Dreams can't Exist.

Every so often, I get asked the typical, "what do you want to do with your life?" question.
Trouble is, I can't answer them without being scoffed at. Being me, everything I envision doing in the future involves mere tasks that involve no usage of the brain. It's a given, I like to do things that don't involve thinking too hard.

I want to be a pastry chef: I'm good with designing details, but how can I support myself in the future?
I want to be an interior designer: I'm great with colors and am good at just designing, but anyone can say the same.
I want to be a make-up artist: I like playing around with make-up for other people, but that job can't last long.
I want to be a cosmetologist: Since I have pretty bad skin, I want to help others. But how can I do that when I can't even fix my own?
I want to be a psychologist: I'm decent at helping people with their problems, and thinking realistically, but anyone can do that.
I want to be a veterinarian: I love dealing with animals, but I'm allergic to cats, and how could I stick a needle into a puppy?
I want to be a piercer/tattoo artist: I'm fond of them, but I can't be responsible of fucking someone's body parts up
I want to have my own clothing line: I'm okay at drawing/thinking of t-shirt ideas, but I suck flat out at Adobe Illustrator, and who would buy my shit?

Pretty much, my dreams are a bunch of shit. Of course, I do want a secure future, and a stable lifestyle where I don't have to constantly fret over financial issues. Everything I want to do, is just silly dreams. Dreams that haven't been thought thoroughly about. I need to think realistically, and put all these wishful-thinking dreams behind me, regardless of the whole "follow your dreams" bullshit.

I Got My Summer "Un Lock."

You needa be a G in order to get the title's pun.

Elite's Afternoon Boot Camp (ABC) is finally over. Eight weeks... went by so quickly! LOL @ all the drama that happened. I'm so over drama--- don't give me any! I'm fine with just watching. My score did increase, but it's still not satisfactory. Maybe the extension will help me? Indeed, Ivymax can always save my ass too. Ugh, how depressing. As for right now, I'm free during the weekdays and sunday now.

Plans of the rest of '09 summer:
- make memories with my friends
- clean my room (I actually had to do it today, but I was eating shaved ice with Alyssa)
- sleep
- work-out (seriously)
- tan
- shop
- dye my hair light-brown/blonde, or just brown.
- lip piercing (pending)
- tragus piercing
- start and finish summer reading
- get the hair fixed


I hate it when people diss my music taste. Hello?! My taste in music is the one thing that I hold pride for.

Love Don't Stop.

Currently Playing:
D-Pryde: Love Don't Stop

Here's the past coupla days in a summary.

Thursday: Last day of Alyssa being at Elite with me. It was kind of sad since I'm not super close with anyone at Elite except Josh, Sharon, Hye Hyun, etc... But still. Thursday Elite was whack, I felt like I was going to bomb all both the reading and vocab quizes. BUT, I didn't, heh. After class, Alyssa and I hitched a ride from Hye Hyun, and went to eat Pho. Actually, we shared vermicilli, both yum. After, we shared Yogurtland and Lollicup: double yum! I have such a sweet tooth. We just talked, chilled, caught up. I saw people I "dig." Holy fuck, I know exactly how I want my future guy to look like. I love my type, I love it. Gimme gimme! Thanks Alyssa, I had fun with you that night. <3>
Friday: Signed up for SAT Subject test Chinese w/ Listening. Feel motivated for junior year!

Saturday: I, being nocturnal, slept at five in the morning, whilst texting Richard and doing homework. So then I crashed inevitably, and woke up at 11 ish. Had class (so boring, and lonely). Then went home, signed up for SAT's (yikes!), and waited patiently like a good little girl for Quyen to get her ass over my crib. We chilled, went to the pool (the sunset/sky was so pretty, even though the sunset's been ruined for me), and made noodles. Cater to you? Oh pulease. LCQT=JBCT! Thanks Quyen, today was fun. <3

Pre-plans for Sunday: Elite homework, and...?

I finally realized what I want in a guy. The list of characteristics is too long, but I'll be sure to tell "the one" when I meet him. For now, it's just fun and games.

For some strange reason, I'm pumped for junior year. Even though it's going to be a bitch, and my desk will be my best friend for the entire year, I'm excited.

I need to meet more people. People with passion, intelligence, wit, charisma, personality. Enlighten me!

Reflection of Summer.

Currently Playing:
MIMS- Did you Wrong

Another lame-o day. Summer's been kinda lame overall, if you ask me. Let me break it down for ya.

In the beginning, it was like.. "oh shit, I got classes all summer, FML." Well, I did get an A in health and an A- in Alg2B. (= But really, I've met some coolkats this summer, which surprises me. These niggas know who I'm talking about! Meeting these people made me realize how vast of a social environment there is in Irvine that I haven't even explored. I didn't even know these people existed, hah. No hate involved!

Feelings were exposed to the bitterness of infatuation; feelings have been hurt this summer; people met new potentials; friendships evolved into a tangle of jealousy and betrayal; people thought they found their special somebodies; people were lied to. Not only do I know people that went through all this, I went through this shit too. Don't get me wrong, my summer did get kind of interesting at times, but me... I'm an independent bitch who doesn't like drama whatsoever. Why the hell did all that have to happen? Seriously... Elite. People, wake up. This place isn't for finding true love, or finding chicks or guys to hook up with. So why make it like one?

Give me SUMMER: beach, friends, kick-backs, parties, shopping, dinner, dates, happiness. Is that too much to ask for?

Rainy Days Blew Me Away...

.. so I drank the 4 everyday.

It surprises me how quickly this summer has gone by. And saddens me to realize how uneventful and plain-jane this summer has been. And quite frankly, I'm bored shitless.

Dad finally moved to Seattle; I feel bad for my mom.

Eric and I made a goal: to work our asses off this year so we can achieve happiness and success!