Real talk.

I don't know if I'm lying to myself. Is what I'm feeling true? I don't want to be selfish and keep you all to me. I want you to be happy. But I don't want to be lying to you as well. Honestly, my feelings are ambiguous. I believe I like you. I believe I love you. But sometimes I feel nothing. I don't want to hurt you, but I don't want to keep you when you could be able to go out and act freely. I'm not a relationship person. Because I don't feel anything at times, does that mean I'm faking it? I'm confused. I've felt this way since November. In my mind, I'd always ask myself, "is this a fake relationship?" Maybe not on your part, but it would be on my part. Why did I meet you, things are so difficult! A relationship needs trust. But I don't trust you fully. I'm so selfish. Babe, I love you. But maybe I don't love you as much as you say you love me back? That's not fair to you.