To me, Dreams can't Exist.

Every so often, I get asked the typical, "what do you want to do with your life?" question.
Trouble is, I can't answer them without being scoffed at. Being me, everything I envision doing in the future involves mere tasks that involve no usage of the brain. It's a given, I like to do things that don't involve thinking too hard.

I want to be a pastry chef: I'm good with designing details, but how can I support myself in the future?
I want to be an interior designer: I'm great with colors and am good at just designing, but anyone can say the same.
I want to be a make-up artist: I like playing around with make-up for other people, but that job can't last long.
I want to be a cosmetologist: Since I have pretty bad skin, I want to help others. But how can I do that when I can't even fix my own?
I want to be a psychologist: I'm decent at helping people with their problems, and thinking realistically, but anyone can do that.
I want to be a veterinarian: I love dealing with animals, but I'm allergic to cats, and how could I stick a needle into a puppy?
I want to be a piercer/tattoo artist: I'm fond of them, but I can't be responsible of fucking someone's body parts up
I want to have my own clothing line: I'm okay at drawing/thinking of t-shirt ideas, but I suck flat out at Adobe Illustrator, and who would buy my shit?

Pretty much, my dreams are a bunch of shit. Of course, I do want a secure future, and a stable lifestyle where I don't have to constantly fret over financial issues. Everything I want to do, is just silly dreams. Dreams that haven't been thought thoroughly about. I need to think realistically, and put all these wishful-thinking dreams behind me, regardless of the whole "follow your dreams" bullshit.

Love Don't Stop.

Currently Playing:
D-Pryde: Love Don't Stop

Here's the past coupla days in a summary.

Thursday: Last day of Alyssa being at Elite with me. It was kind of sad since I'm not super close with anyone at Elite except Josh, Sharon, Hye Hyun, etc... But still. Thursday Elite was whack, I felt like I was going to bomb all both the reading and vocab quizes. BUT, I didn't, heh. After class, Alyssa and I hitched a ride from Hye Hyun, and went to eat Pho. Actually, we shared vermicilli, both yum. After, we shared Yogurtland and Lollicup: double yum! I have such a sweet tooth. We just talked, chilled, caught up. I saw people I "dig." Holy fuck, I know exactly how I want my future guy to look like. I love my type, I love it. Gimme gimme! Thanks Alyssa, I had fun with you that night. <3>
Friday: Signed up for SAT Subject test Chinese w/ Listening. Feel motivated for junior year!

Saturday: I, being nocturnal, slept at five in the morning, whilst texting Richard and doing homework. So then I crashed inevitably, and woke up at 11 ish. Had class (so boring, and lonely). Then went home, signed up for SAT's (yikes!), and waited patiently like a good little girl for Quyen to get her ass over my crib. We chilled, went to the pool (the sunset/sky was so pretty, even though the sunset's been ruined for me), and made noodles. Cater to you? Oh pulease. LCQT=JBCT! Thanks Quyen, today was fun. <3

Pre-plans for Sunday: Elite homework, and...?

I finally realized what I want in a guy. The list of characteristics is too long, but I'll be sure to tell "the one" when I meet him. For now, it's just fun and games.

For some strange reason, I'm pumped for junior year. Even though it's going to be a bitch, and my desk will be my best friend for the entire year, I'm excited.

I need to meet more people. People with passion, intelligence, wit, charisma, personality. Enlighten me!